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Jesus was crucified on Friday.
All day Saturday, his body lay in the tomb. On
Sunday, the first day of the week, the tomb was empty, and that’s when
the risen Lord began to appear to his friends, including the two on the
road to Emmaus. Here’s
what Frederick Buechner (The Magnificent Defeat, 1966) has to say about those three days:
Late Friday afternoon he
died, and then there was Saturday, which should have been the worst day
except that somehow or other perhaps it was not.
If for even as much as an instant we look up into the full
brilliance of the sun, we find that for hours afterward, whenever we
close our eyes, the outline of the sun is still there as though the
image had been branded on our eyelids; and so it must have been for the
ones who had been present that Friday on the hill where he was executed.
On Saturday, the Jewish Sabbath, even with their eyes closed,
they could still see the three crosses dark and angular against the sky;
even with their fingers in their ears, they could still hear the sounds
that had been made up there; the cry of thirst, the buzzing of the
flies, and the heat, because heat has a sound too, like a muffled drum
or the beating of a heart.
But the poet was right who said that “After great pain a formal
feeling comes,” and for the people who had loved the man and had gone
up Friday to be near him when he died, Saturday must have been a
strangely formal day too, the way the day after the death of someone we
love is always a formal day: when
we arrange our faces carefully and our words carefully, and we are even
careful where we put our feet because we have the feeling that one
careless step and earth and heaven both might split in two about us.
The way if somebody in our family dies, when we go back after the
funeral, things are quite different for a while:
people are very polite and a little stiff with us, and are apt to
straighten their ties and start talking about the weather when we enter
the room.
But the world of course never lets us be formal for long.
All of a sudden, before we know it, it is back to its old tricks
again: pulling the chair
out from under us just as we are about to sit down; just as the lumps in
our throats are about to burst, blowing trumpets in our ears or setting
off firecrackers. And
perhaps that is the worst time of all
-- when we realize
that life is going to have to go on the same way it always has except
that of course it will never be the same again.
So for at least some of the followers of Jesus, maybe the worst
day was the third one, Sunday, which for the Jews was like our Monday,
with everything around them returning so completely to normal that it
was impossible to believe that either his life or his death was going to
make any difference to the world at all.
When they were suddenly afraid that the whole business of his
life had not really added up to much.
He had made great promises and great claims, and a number of
people had placed all their greatest hopes in him.
But now he was dead. Of
course there were rumors about the tomb’s being empty.
The women had come back just after sunrise full of wild stories.
But rumors are only rumors, women are always telling wild
stories, and for at least two of the people who had followed him, there
was nothing left to do that Sunday but get out of town.
And where did they go? They
went to Emmaus. And where
was Emmaus and why did they go there?
It was no place in particular really, and the only reason that
they went there was that it was some seven miles distant from a
situation that had become intolerable.
Do you understand what I mean when I say that there is not one of
us who has not gone to Emmaus with them?
Emmaus can be a trip to the movies just for the sake of seeing a
movie or to a cocktail party just for the sake of the cocktails.
Emmaus may be buying a new suit or a new car or smoking more
cigarettes than you really want, or reading a second-rate novel or even
writing one. Emmaus may be going to church on Sunday.
Emmaus is whatever we do or wherever we go to make ourselves
forget that the world holds nothing sacred:
that even the wisest and bravest and loveliest decay and die;
that even the noblest ideas that men have had
-- ideas about love
and freedom and justice -- have always
in time been twisted out of shape by selfish men for selfish ends.
Emmaus is where we go, where these two went, to try to forget
about Jesus and the great failure of his life.
It is a strange story. All
the stories about how Jesus appeared to people after his death are
strange, and the strangest thing about them is how unglamorous they are,
how little fanfare there is about them.
If you or I had written them, it would have been hard to resist
giving them a little more drama. In the stories about how he was born there is a whole choir
of angels singing “Glory to God in the highest” and kings arriving
from the East with precious gifts; the shepherds coming in out of the
night to kneel at the manger; and the star.
But here, for instance, all we have are two men walking along a
dusty road to a town that nobody had heard of much, suddenly aware of
footsteps approaching them from behind and being joined then by a
stranger who was Jesus but whom they did not even recognize, perhaps
because even when he was alive they had never really recognized him, had
seen him not as he actually was but only as they had wanted him to be; a
hero who would give them a lot of easy answers to all of life’s
hardest questions, questions about love and pain and goodness and death.
So they were joined by this Jesus, whom they did not recognize,
and when they reached the village of Emmaus, and because it was getting
late, they persuaded him to stop and have supper with them.
And it was only then, only as he took the bread and blessed it
and broke it, that they knew who he was.
And no sooner did they know who he was than he vanished from
their sight. Much as they
would have given to have had him stay there a minute or two more, they
could not make him stay. They
can never nail him down. And
that is how it always is. We
can never nail him down, not even if the nails we use are real ones and
the thing we nail him to is a cross.
He comes suddenly, out of nowhere, like the first clear light of
the sun after a thunderstorm or maybe like the thunder itself; and maybe
we recognize him, and maybe we do not, and our lives are never the same
again either because we did not recognize him or because we did.
And the place where he comes is very apt to be Emmaus, which is
the place where we spend much of our lives, you and I, the place that we
go to in order to escape --
a bar, a movie, wherever it is we throw up our hands and say,
“Let the whole damned thing go hang.
It makes no difference anyway.”
But there are some things that even in Emmaus we cannot escape.
We can escape our troubles, at least for a while.
We can escape the job we did not get or the friend we hurt.
We can even escape for a while the awful suspicion that life
makes no sense and that the religion of Jesus is just a lot of wishful
thinking. But the one thing
we cannot escape is life itself: the
fact that I am here on this earth, a living human being with blood in my
veins and breath in my lungs. We
cannot escape getting hungry, and we cannot escape eating.
We cannot escape walking or driving down a dusty road to get from
one place to another.
And my point is this, that it is precisely at such times as these
that life is going to ask us questions that we cannot escape for long:
questions about where the road we are traveling is finally going
to take us; about whether food is enough to keep us alive, truly alive;
about who we are and who the stranger is behind us.
In other words, it is precisely at such times as these that Jesus
is apt to come, into the very midst of life at its most real and
inescapable. Not in a blaze
of unearthly light, not in the midst of a sermon, not in the throes of
some kind of religious daydream, but at supper time, or walking along a
road. This is the element
that all the stories about Christ’s return to life have in common:
Mary waiting at the empty tomb and suddenly turning around to see
somebody standing there --
someone she thought at first was the gardener; all the disciples
except Thomas hiding out in a locked house, and then his coming and
standing in the midst; and later, when Thomas was there, his coming
again and standing in the midst; Peter taking his boat back after a
night at sea, and there on the shore, near a little fire of coals, a
familiar figure asking, “Children, have you any fish?”;
the two men at Emmaus who knew him in the breaking of the bread.
He never approached from on high, but always in the midst, in the
midst of people, in the midst of real life and the questions that real
life asks.
The sacred moments, the moments of miracle, are often the
everyday moments, the moments which, if we do not look with more than
our eyes or listen with more than our ears, reveal only . . . the
gardener, a stranger coming down the road behind us, a meal like any
other meal.
But if we look with our hearts, if we listen with all of our
being and our imagination --
if we live our lives not from vacation to vacation, from escape
to escape, but from the miracle of one instant of our precious lives to
the miracle of the next, what we may see is Jesus himself, what we may
hear is the first faint sound of a voice somewhere deep within us saying
that there is a purpose in this life, in our lives, whether we can
understand it completely or not; and that this purpose follows behind us
through all our doubting and being afraid, through all our indifference
and boredom, to a moment when suddenly we know for sure that everything
does make sense because everything is in the hands of God, one of whose
names is forgiveness, another is love. This is what the stories about Jesus’ coming back to life
mean, because Jesus was the love of God, alive among us, and not all the
cruelty and blindness of men could kill him.
If someone wants proof that he is alive and that this is so, all
I can say in honesty is that I have none to give.
No preacher can prove it, no teacher, no book, not even the
Bible. It defies logic and
reason, and it breaks the laws of nature as we understand them.
If we are to believe he is really alive, with all that that
implies, then we have to believe without proof.
And of course that is the only way it could be.
If it could be somehow proved, then we would have no choice but
to believe. We would lose our freedom not to believe.
And in the very moment that we lost that freedom, we would cease
to be human beings. Our
love of God would have been forced upon us, and love that is forced is
of course not love at all. Love
must be freely given. Love
must live in the freedom not to love; it must take risks.
Love must be prepared to suffer even as Jesus on the Cross
suffered, and part of that suffering is doubt, even as Jesus on the
Cross doubted.
But if we have no proof that he is alive, we have many witnesses,
two thousand years of them, and yet we have more than that.
We have the witness of our own lives, or at least of certain deep
moments when we were truly alive and when, if only for a moment or two,
we have seen in the breaking of a piece of bread, for instance, not just
a piece of bread breaking, but something broken for us, a givenness, a
source of life. The tale
that Christianity tells is the tale of a sinless life given away, in
love, to make up in some unfathomable way for all that we mean by our
sin, to give us life in place of all that we mean by death.
The greatest miracle that Christianity has to proclaim is that
the love that suffered agonies on that hill outside the city walls was
the love of God himself, the love of God for his creation, which is a
love that has no limit, not even the limit of death.
And for us the meaning of that love is that we can now raise our
own shrill voices from the hills of our own suffering and say some such
words as these:
There is little that we can point to in our lives as deserving
anything but God’s wrath.
Our best moments have been mostly grotesque parodies.
Our best loves have been almost always blurred with selfishness
and deceit.
But there is something to which we can point.
Not anything that we ever did or were, but something that was
done for us by another.
Not our own lives, but the life of one who died in our behalf and
yet is still alive.
This is our only glory and our only hope.
And the sound that it makes is the sound of excitement and
gladness and laughter that floats through the night air from a great
banquet.
It is what Christians mean by salvation, and we saw it first at
Emmaus, through Jesus Christ our Lord.
It is what George Wallace Briggs means by salvation in these
words we will sing with him later this morning:
Come, risen Lord, and deign to be our guest;
nay, let us be thy guests; the feast is thine.
thyself at thine own board make manifest
in thine own Sacrament of bread and wine.
We meet, as in that upper room they met;
thou at the table, blessing, yet dost stand;
“This is thy Body”; so thou givest yet:
faith still receives the cup as from thy hand.
One body we, one Body who partake,
one Church united in communion blest;
one Name we bear, one Bread of life we break,
with all thy saints on earth and saints at rest.
One with each other, Lord, for one in thee,
who art one Savior and one living Head;
then open thou our eyes, that we may see;
be known to us in breaking of the Bread.
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